People also don't tell you that your mommy instincts aka the over-active-anxiety that kicks in as well. I already had anxiety about just about everything in life as it is, now you throw a baby in the mix and I'm about as anxious as a dog waiting to fetch a bone. Like the other night, we went to see a movie.. Standard thing we do considering we live right behind a move theater. We went with Erica & Rishi on a double date fun-night. And it was an action movie, however we were sitting in the far back but I was overcome with a sense of aniexty knowing that my little growing boy was being subject to shootings and explosions. So I took all three jackets next to me bundled them up over my stomach, my knees bended and plugged my ears - as if closing my ears would some how shield some noise? I'm not sure what I was thinking, but it surely made sense at the time. Patrick looking over at me probably wishing he sat next to Erica or Rishi (the sane ones in the group) and says "Babe, its OK!" I immediately start to cry - why you ask - no idea?! After the action subsided for a good 20 mins, I realized there was still 45 mins left in the movie which means more action scenes were still to come. So I got up to "use the restroom" and sat in the lobby where my little mans ears were safe. So thank you to Eve, Erin and Jill for calming me down when I was in straight panic mode that I was had hurt my little one. Needless to say... Hormones -1. Sam - 0. Actually at this point I think its Hormones - 1000. Sam - 0, lol.
On a less stressed note, we had a wonderful holiday with the Brady's. We flew back to Michigan to spend it with Mom & Dad. We hadnt given them the good news that it was a boy yet. So after a flight - insert aniexty + stress here - they picked us up and we went to Bob Evans. Dad loves Bob Evans when they're 'on the road' so we went for some breakfast that morning. Which was perfect because we had a gift to give them to announce the sex of the baby! :) So on the way we were discussing what they thought it was, and Dad had been thinking and calling him his grandson for over a month now. Yet, Mom thought it could be a girl. So we just kept the discussion going for fun.. keeping the suspense going. Side note - as you all know, Patrick has a massive noggin. When he was born, it literally was 1/2 the size of his body. So its been a worry of mine for years now, let alone as his little boy grows inside me. How the heck will I get that through the passage way? lol. I mean, Katie (his mom) is smaller than me, so i hope if she can do it I can. :) Back to the point of the story.. when they were talking about how fashionable the little girl would be etc. they said "Its not the head that you'll have to worry about at delivery, its the heels shell be wearing" Hahah. Thank goodness its a boy my first time around, right? So we shocked them with a blue onsie that said "I got my good looks from my Pop". They were on top of the world, a Brady boy to pass along the Brady name! :) Couldnt have been happier! Needless to say it was a good breakfast. Especially since my biscuits and gravy were oozing with goodness. Yumm..
So since we found out we were pregnant with little brady here, we have been having some life changes in progress. Such as getting a new apartment to fit him and all his things. I know hes a boy, but if hes anything like his mother hes going to come with a lot of things. As Patrick says, I use him to justify new purchases. "But I need this new Kate Spade bag so i can carry all the prenatal vitamins, I need them for the baby!" To give you a little taste - hahah. So needless to say, were getting a bigger place in Old Town, VA. Old town is the cutest area right outside the district, in a safe and adorable area. Cute shops and eats. Perfect for our little growing family. If it cant be Chicago, Old town VA it will be. :) So we finally signed our lease yesterday for our 2 bathroom and 2 bedroom. Next month, we are buying a car to fit the little munchkin in. In addition to the fact that we dont want to have my water break and then wait for 12 mins for the metro - metro has a strict policy regarding liquids "no liquids of any kind" so we just HAVE to get a car, right?? There it is... justified.
So anyways with all these changes Patrick said, just because were moving doesn't mean we have to redecorate the whole apartment - who does he think hes talking to? Oh that's right, he knows me very well. I had already started multiple boards on pinterest, shhhh he doesn't know that. But the other night, he and Brad were getting ready for a boys night out and I a little me time IN. What was I going to do? Of course when you leave me alone for long enough, I shop. Its a problem, I know. So, while they were sipping on some brewskeys I was browsing on some sites. Patrick says drinking is his escapes from the stresses of life (aka his crazy moody wife) and I escape by shopping. Fair, I think.
So I had to get new linens, towels, and shower curtains for both bathrooms in our new place. It's just a necessity, obviously. You cant shower without a shower curtain and how would you dry off or what would you wipe your feet on? I mean, it was a must-have. So it doesn't really count in redecorating, right? So, im looking around online and Patrick has to have blue for the babies/guest bath - hes speaking on behalf of our little boy he says - i think he just wants to have blue around him when hes in there for 45 mins playing baseball he feels like its his man cave? I dont know. Maybe itll help with the flow of things, Ill give him the benefit of the doubt. So I said OK. With that said i found a bunch of options, of which was this navy blue thick striped curtain and he loved it - I did not. So finally i found light blue seersucker-like curtain from pottery barn, I just had to have it. It was much more subtle and I could work with the color. So of course its 2 on 1 (he thinks he counts for two votes now since he's speaking of behalf of our little boy), actually 3 on 1 cause Brad was there too, gung-ho for the navy/white option. I was feeling very overwhelmed, a little preview to what my life will be like when little Brady comes. So, hes telling me all the reasons why we should buy the dark blue. "Babe, you decorate every other room in the house", "Babe, you picked out that new duvet.." i interrupted with tears ready to flow "But youre getting a boyyyyyyyyyy!" Needless to say, light blue is in - navy is out! :)
Tears and emotions are flowing a lot easier these days, and poor Patrick has the brunt of it. Like when were in Michigan for our last night and I really love this pizza place there. We always go, and we actually had already gone that week. But i wanted it before we left. So i asked patrick to suggest we go there to his parents, but not to mention I wanted it. I guess his Mom said that she was going to make Spagetti, he just thinking hes doing right by his pregnant and hormonal wife says "Sams really craving it" And of course, she said OK. Well I who was unaware of the last part of the conversation, was upstairs getting ready and his Dad said "I hear you're craving pizza" and I instantly got upset and went into our room to cry. (Again, i know now how insane this sounds - at the time I felt it was totally justified..) So Patrick comes in and really doesn't understand why Im upset since were going for Pizza like I wanted. But it was just that I wanted pizza but didnt want anyone to know that, so I was thoroughly upset when they all knew I was the one who wanted pizza. Therefore I didn't want pizza anymore. So as I'm yelling at Patrick - cause I think it makes sense - hes apologizing and I tell him I dont want to see his face. So he goes to leaves the room and of course I start wailing that he left. . so he comes back in.. and is really confused at what i want. Do i want pizza? Do i want him in the room? I mean is it too much to ask when i say i dont want to see your face, for him to just move to the other side of the bed so i didnt have to look at him but i knew he was there and bring me pizza in bed? HA. All aboard the crazy rollarcoaster... I'm just thankful hes not checking me into the mental hospital. P.S. the pizza was scrumptious.
Needless to say Pregnancy has its joys and laughs, but I'm so thankful every moment of the day that I am so fortunate to be pregnant. Many women have trouble getting pregnant and some aren't able to bear a child at all. So I am beyond blessed and thankful for the opportunity to be able to tell the stories about our journey with our growing baby boy.
